If I’ve said it once, I’ve said it a thousand times; and if I’ve said it a thousand times, I’ll say it a thousand more: there is so much that I don’t understand.
I’m thinking that the awareness of a lack of knowledge is not really “normal”. And I’m thinking that the awareness of a lack of knowledge is at least something worth considering.
Although I am usually aware that I am outside the realm of full understanding, my position as an expat heightens this awareness. Now, from my vantage point on life here in the UAE, my questions and my lack of understanding slap me in the face over and over and over again daily.
How can I not be aware?
With awareness of the lack of knowledge, I find myself contemplating its consequences on relationships, choices, perspectives, and experiences.
In familiarity, a lack of knowledge gets swept into corners we call cultural norms, it’s just life. But in a foreign land, all lack of knowledge comes out and stands under a spotlight on the stage of our existence. The lack of knowledge is camouflaged and gets expressed in complaints, defensive language, and self-promoting explanations. In a foreign land, the lack of knowledge is so predominant, and is disguised as something else, that we don’t see it; certainly we don’t even realize how it colors and shapes everything we experience.
Aware of this huge gap in my knowledge base, I am in an ebb and flow of asking questions, processing answers and the lack of them, taking in my observations, and an endless internal dialogue. Each time I pose a theory, I find it washed away by something new.
I believe that as I move through the space where knowledge is void, I must do so with a kind of faith. Faith in the process of all things: faith in the process of learning; faith in the process of gaining new insights that lead to new knowledge that leads to a new depth of experience. Faith in the process of growing.
Most of us do not know that we even have a lack of knowledge, let alone consider how big it is. But I am here to tell you that a lack of knowledge, when recognized for what it is – pure and simple – is the opportunity to take one more step toward self-actualization.
A lack of knowledge is not comfortable, but an awareness of it makes all the difference. An awareness of the lack of knowledge is the soul’s invitation to grow.